Sitting in a church pew last night with my Mister, feeling a sense of profound loss that I had no words to describe. The speaker spoke of loneliness, which he described as a feeling of missing someone or something that is no longer the same part of our lives. I had never thought of loneliness in those terms. But as I looked at the once full pew my husband and I shared, I was lonely. For so many years, we had babies to soothe and then toddlers to sit on and next children to occupy, and lastly teens to nurture into adults. I was lonely and yet this man that I have shared everything alongside for the last 26+ years was sitting next to me and I thought , I know exactly what he is feeling. I laid my head on his shoulder for the remainder of the service and found much comfort there. Jessica Pearl
Thanks for sharing this little bit.... I have two teens who have been my bookends in church for just over 13-14 years now. And often think of how I may be there alone in the future. I might experience loneliness then, but know I will never be alone.
ReplyDeleteThanks for writing this. I have a 2.5 year old and 7 month old and sometimes all I crave is to be alone. I can't imagine them not being around me every waking hour or not needing me so much. Yet another reason to enjoy the moment :)
ReplyDeleteWe adopted 2 from China when our youngest homegrown was 10! Our house is still full and busy and loud...you get the picture :) and we also have grandchildren not much younger than our 2 littles!
ReplyDeleteSuch a beautiful family you have. You have done a great job...blessings to you all. I know our day for this is just around the corner...*hugs*
ReplyDeleteI know exactly how you feel!!! It took me two years to get over the lonliness...not having that constant buzz of motherhood...yet sometimes even feeling guilty for enjoying my new found freedom. I started quilting only four years ago and it has been wonderful to start a hobby that I so long wanted to start. I also make quilts for my daughters to fill their apartments! Let's keep being blogging pals...I noticed you just started this summer too! It WILL get better.
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